Since my email to her was on the same topic as a blog post I had been formulating in my head, I figured I would just copy and paste most of it here. But in the off chance that she visits my blog, I didn't want her to think I was just barfing out the same content everywhere. It was an email to you first, Susan. I swear!
Anyway, on to my neurotic spin of the week: As a type 4, I seem plagued by the analytical, breaking-things-down-to-get-to-the-truth-by-identifying-the-problem thinking that is a characteristic of the personality type. I constantly and forever see what is wrong/missing with situations, people, myself...Usually I am the only one who can see these things and/or is willing to articulate them, so I know that I am a necessary force in this world.
But after a while, when others seem to only be in denial or don't want to see what I see (even when I point it out in a nice, diplomatic way or couch it in a question - which is SO hard!!) then I decide, of course, that what is REALLY wrong with me is that all I see is what is wrong/missing with everything. In other words, I am what the rest of the world would call "negative." And, naturally then I go trying to fix that and make myself more positive to see if that won't make me happier. Which means that I am stuck in the perpetual self-diagnosis and "what-do-I-need-to-change" cycle which really only amounts to beating myself senseless about who I really am.
Once, in the middle of such an episode, I had a boyfriend ask, "What if there's nothing wrong with you?" Which I found to be an amazing revelation, a great relief and extremely freeing for about a day until I, of course, figured out what was wrong with that statement. (I later figured out what was wrong with him too, which was also a great relief. But I digress....)
One of my main worries is, how does my personality type affect the law of attraction in my life (also known as The Secret.) If I always see what is wrong/missing, will I continue to manifest things or situations that are wrong/missing something with my "negative" energy?
Here we go loop-de-loop...
I think you just had too much coffee on Monday , GF.
ReplyDeleteSeriously though, you also see the good aspects, do you not? Instead of thinking you're negative, think of yourself as assessing the entire situation, good and bad. That's being realistic.